With all of my shows wrapped up for the season, and no movies in theaters I need to immediately see, I haven't really been consuming much new entertainment lately, so there isn't as much of that this week (nor has there been the past few weeks). There is so much else going on in my life and in my mind that I want to write about and process.
Here's what is going on in my world this week:
I had a really quick turnaround to move my life hundreds of miles (again). I hope that this is the last time for a while that I have to do this. I know that transitions are hard for me. It upsets my routine, I move away from the people and places I know, and have to go through all the stressful changes to my address, driver's license, etc. I still don't feel like I'm settled yet, after being about two months in, but from past experience, I know I'll get there eventually. It doesn't make the transitioning process any easier to get through, but I know it is all for the best. I'm in an area that is better for me and my partner, closer to my brother, have a great job, and am setting up my own apartment that isn't in a residence hall. Looking back, this part of my life that has been awkward and difficult will be a fraction of the rest; a small footnote to what I know will be a fun ride with my partner by my side.
To put it simply, I put a lot of pressure on myself. I'm humble when it comes to my accomplishments, but I push myself to do well and to do good by my friends, family, and coworkers. I've realized lately that I need to give myself a break sometimes. Being too humble and putting too much pressure on myself is not a good mix. I need to value more of what I achieve and let it be enough. I think I do this on my good days, but with my life being stressful right now (see above) I've fallen into bad mental habits. I look forward to some of the stress slowly starting to fade away as things start to normalize here. That way I can hopefully be less hard on myself.
- Brother's Wedding
My brother is getting married next week in Delaware, and I'm his best man! It's surreal to think we're getting to this point in our lives where we're getting married, working, and starting our families. While it is stressful getting our lives started and not being able to hang out all the time, I'm excited for this next chapter for both of us. The wedding will be a small, intimate ceremony with close family and friends on the beach. It will be a great celebration of my brother and his future wife. Looking forward to heading to back to Delaware soon!